Just some ramblings today about life as an artist, family and the holidays. Today is Small Business Saturday and I’m up at the studio enjoying the shoppers, most window shopping, but those who stop in and chat are a pleasure. Each connection will lead to something some day, right?
Black Friday I spent with my family. The kiddos and I hung around drawing, playing on our devices, watching some sappy Hallmark Movies. We just enjoyed each other, quietly and peacefully. We did do a little shopping online but nothing big.
How did you spend you Black Friday and Small Business Saturday?
That brings me to my first rambling, life as an artist. It is hard. So many think it is so easy but to be an artist and run your own business is hard. First art is personal, we create because of something we connect with so right there it becomes personal. Up until recently I had always created something based on a story or experience of my own. So those pieces are very personal to me and that makes it hard when someone doesn’t like the piece or it doesn’t sell. Now I’m trying to create in a way that leaves the viewer creating their own story. Pieces that are not personal to me but they still reflect pieces of my thoughts. I was speaking to a gentleman today who said ‘the pieces that make me wonder or allow me to create the story are the ones I connect with.’ That was thought provoking for me and exactly how I’m trying to create now.
Second reason I think being an artist is hard is because it is so subjective. I have been a small business owner for 14 years. For most of that time I was a Commercial Interior Design Project Manager, creating spaces and the construction drawings to go with them. Spaces for small businesses that were centered around a brand. The emotional connection was not the same, I won’t say it didn’t exist because for some clients it certainly did exist. However, the personal connection was not present for me so it was easier to sell the design and also take criticism.
All this to say there are lots of joys to being an artist but it is hard. And if more people would start shopping small more artists would survive and thrive. So when thinking about a gift look for something that is unique and tells a story, something that creates a connection.
Family is interesting and my second rambling. I am in constant awe over family. I don’t live close to any family, the closest is my mom and she is a 10 hour drive from us, but she is the reason I’m rambling about family today. See I’m an only child and have to depend on the rest of my family, her sisters and my cousins, to help me. My mom is fighting stage 4 breast cancer and at times isn’t feeling well. This year we decided to stay home for the holiday for a few reasons, and my mom was going to head to my cousins for the big Thanksgiving celebration. However the universe had different plans, she wasn’t feeling well, honestly she was really fatigued and couldn’t handle the three hour drive as it would exhaust her more and then take weeks to recoup. Well that brought a major feeling of guilt and sadness over me. I know our years with my mom are numbered, heck they are with each and every one of us. So while speaking with my aunt she said ‘I wish there was a place we knew could delivery her a meal today.’
That got my wheels turning and I found a place, it wasn’t a Thanksgiving meal, but it was a meal. So that made me feel a little bit better. Cancer sucks! I hate cancer! I want my mom to be here for so many more years because she is still so young. But then we have the crazy people in the family that do not think she has cancer, so infuriating!! And then they take so many other things from her too through their actions. They also take so much from the rest of us too. I just don’t under stand people sometimes and I really don’t understand how family can’t get along. They are part of us. Maybe that is why so many of us consider friends ‘family’ because we have chosen each other. We weren’t born into the family. I don’t know but I just really wish people would just get along!!
Leading me to my next rambling, the Holidays! I use to really love the holidays. I never could get enough of them. Now though I feel like so many of stolen my spirit for the holidays. So many grumps around and Mr. Bah Humbugs that make it hard to be so giddy and happy during the beautiful season. I do really wish the spirit of this time of year was spread all year and then maybe the grumps would have a harder time staying grumpy! Anyways, I’m wishing for a joyful season and that I can overcome the grumps with a smile and kindness. It really is just about being together and spreading joy. So I challenge you to spread that joy. Remember to just trust in yourself and that all things will work out and from there you will be amazed at how much easier it is to put a smile on your face and spread joy. Most of all though don’t take it out on the ones you love. Your kindest words should be said to the ones you love. So again I challenge you to spread joy!!
Well enough with my ramblings, later I will get back to posting about art!
Have a wonderful day!